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a raw romantic is a little broken, hopeful and hopeless at the same time. they love people and they hate people, they love the world and they hate the world, they are cynical and suspicious, but also open minded and caring. a raw romantic sees beauty in unexpected or unnoticed things. they don’t give too much shits about appearance, but care for realness. they don’t appreciate being bullshitted. as long as you’re honest and sincere they will be understanding and easy going, but don’t fuck them over. they care and aren’t afraid to share their beliefs.
they hate ignorance and fake people. being true and real is very much appreciated. they are proud individuals, but humble at the same time. they don’t need all the spotlight, but they do want to be seen. they long for acceptance, but won’t change themselves completely to get that. the raw romantic is lost in between their choices and chances, overthinks stuff, fucks up and gets up, keeps going.
they often get stuck in their past or future, they are nostalgic: always longing for better times. in those where moments they are completely in the present, they are most happy and feel most alive. they seek for ways to unfocus and create more carelessly. they create walls and armours to protect themselves, this might come off as harsh or rude, but it’s actually all about self-protection.
when they are alone, they can feel truly free. a raw romantic is always searching for fractures of happiness and freedom, and finds it in the smallest things. you will find them cycling at night with their eyes closed and arms spread, dancing on their own in a full club, smoking a blunt in the park and philosophizing with friends or strangers, they might balance on edges and seek the border between courageous and cautious. they want to be fearless and free, but also like company. they want to be loved, understood, feel part of the group, while being able to stand alone.
the comfortable darkness isn’t an unfamiliar place for the raw romantic, it’s the place where they feel sound and safe. for they control their danger: themselves and their demons. they might seek that darkness in different ways, but it surely is a place where they find comfort in their lowest points, it’s their sanctuary as much as they don’t want to.
the reason why they feel safe at this place is because they have had to battle through their sadness, brokenness and fucked up mind states, they have known suffering for years. the raw romantic grew accustomed to this, and finds some kinda beauty in it. for that’s how they have learned to survive. they tell them selves: that’s life. and ask themselves questions like: would i rather suffer and feel strongly or be ignorant and feel nothing at all? they rather be judged, then judge others.
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